{"id":390,"date":"2014-06-11T07:31:10","date_gmt":"2014-06-11T14:31:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/insideout.insidewp.test\/?p=390"},"modified":"2014-06-11T07:31:10","modified_gmt":"2014-06-11T14:31:10","slug":"one-makes-vulnerable","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/abbotsfordchristian.com\/insideout\/2014\/06\/11\/one-makes-vulnerable\/","title":{"rendered":"This One Makes Me Vulnerable…"},"content":{"rendered":"

When I picked her up from school for a dentist appointment, I was greeted with the words: \u00a0\u201cYou look like everybody\u2019s mom.\u201d<\/p>\n

I wasn’t exactly sure if that was a compliment.<\/p>\n

And then I caught a glimpse of myself in the reflection of the window. It was true. I had conformed. I was wearing my \u201cworkout gear\u201d out and about. Running shoes, yoga pants, and a sweatshirt. You know the look. Sometimes it\u2019s completed with a headband or a baseball cap. I call it the \u201cmomiform.\u201d \u00a0And I was wearing it.<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

I usually wear workout gear to workout. But today was one of those days when I got sidetracked and didn’t even have time to really get dressed.<\/p>\n

Since my previous post on Zumba, I’ve actually started exercising. For real. I remember when I used to feel good in my clothes and that things weren’t so soft and well, jiggly. Then 40 hit and the metabolism wasn’t as forgiving as it used to be.<\/p>\n

I always fear that I will \u201clet myself go\u201d or that I really won\u2019t look put together. Even during the sleepless night phase of having a two-year-old and newborn, I would shower, get dressed, and put on makeup. Why? I just needed to feel human. So, I guess you might say that I\u2019m in the habit of getting dressed every day. Even if I\u2019m sick at home, I have a problem wearing my P.J.\u2019s all day. And pajama day at school? Oh boy, it rocks my inner self.<\/p>\n

\"Karen\"<\/p>\n

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Someone recently commented that \u201cYou always look so put together.\u201d The truth is, I\u2019m not. I guess I\u2019m good at faking it. I’ve battled with S.A.D. and, by the grace of God, have been healed. Yet, the insecurities that had rooted themselves in me for so long are hard to shake off. I know who I am in Christ and yet, the niggling lie of \u201cyou\u2019re just not good enough,\u201d rears its ugly head now and then.<\/p>\n

So, how do I deal with that? I affirm my identity in Christ, daily and out loud. (Joyce Meyer<\/a> has put together a list of affirmations that are biblical truth). And, I sing \u201cJesus loves me, this I know\u2026when I am weak, he is strong\u2026 Yes! \u00a0Jesus loves me!<\/i>\u201d \u00a0And, every day I need to work<\/strong> at it.<\/p>\n

Next time you see me in my \u201cmomiform\u201d just know that I am working it out\u2014how to be who Christ called me to be.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s workout gear. For my soul.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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